Monday, October 16, 2006

What if and How would u feel if.. if you're still bitter?

WARNING: This entry is cheesy so for those who doesnt want to talk or read about love, BACK OFF! please.. **wink**

please just read this conversation of JOEVHEL and a guy that i'll hide as JJ.. lolz.. names will be bleeped to keep those persons' privacy... ok?

JJ : grabe joevhel
JJ : niligawan ata ni *bleep* si *bleep* ... sakit.. pramis.. but di nako masama loob kay *bleep*...

You have just sent a Nudge!

JOEVHEL: oh eh ano nmn ngun
JOEVHEL: eh hndi naman kayo ni *bleep*
JOEVHEL: d rin nmn kayo ni *bleep*
JJ: napaka-numb naman ng reply mo..
JOEVHEL: eh ganun tlga noh
JOEVHEL: tska isa pa
JJ: parang di ka kaibigan
JOEVHEL : ikw n rin ang ngsbi n may mahal k ng iba
JOEVHEL : cnsbhan lng kta
JOEVHEL : un ang icpin mo
JJ: meron na but im still hurt.. alam mo naman bitter pako kay *bleep*
JOEVHEL : kaya ka kc nsasaktan, kc d k p ngmomove on
JJ: which means i ve not moved on totally yet
JOEVHEL : u keep on saying n ngmoved on ka na
JOEVHEL : pero tingin ko sau
JOEVHEL : hndi pa
JJ: kaksabi ko lang eh
JOEVHEL : kaya nga
JOEVHEL hahaha
JJ: sabi ko nga di pako nagmove on
JJ: sabi ko lang may mahal nako iba
JJ: and that's possible naman
JJ: ang sakit lang...
JJ .: *bleep* made me fall so hard for him.. i didnt intend to... and then he hurt me.. and it was a really very bad and hard fall...
JJ: i still have bruises of it up to this moment as we speak..
JOEVHEL : kaw nmn jj
JOEVHEL: ang hirap nmn sau
JOEVHEL: d k n ntuto
JJ: u should feel how hurt i am
JOEVHEL: actually, wla ka dpt sisihin kundi srili mo rin
JOEVHEL : kelan k b matututo
JJ: marami lumalabas sa isip ko na ganitong salita na di ko palagi sinasabi
JOEVHEL : knowing u, mkakamove on ka rin
JOEVHEL : kaw pa
JJ: pain is consuming but i need to be strong
JOEVHEL : uu nmn noh
JOEVHEL : kaw pa
JJ: im trying to heal...

This is about a very good friend and a past someone that has hurt me (not implying that he intended to hurt me though..) that is getting along very well. I don't want to get sympathy or anything of similar sort... I just want to get different perspectives and views about this. How would u feel if someone from your past that you haven't really had a good ending with comes back but now to woo a very close friend of yours? Because honestly... Damn! it really hurt my ego... sa dami-daming tao ba naman, bakit kaibigan ko pa.. haaaayz.. but that's life.. ehehe..


Sunday, September 10, 2006

The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality

The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality

According to my answers, it is likely that I identify as
Past heterosexual, currently homosexual.

Complete set of results

Past heterosexual, currently homosexual:

According to your answers, it is likely that you identify as Past heterosexual, currently homosexual.
Complete set of results

Past heterosexual, currently homosexual: 4
Homosexual with some heterosexuality: 2
Heterosexual with some homosexuality: 1
Homosexual: 1
Sequential bisexual: 1
Asexual: 0
Concurrent bisexual: 0
Heterosexual: 0
Past homosexual, currently heterosexual: 0

The Klein Sexual Orientation Grid

Klein Sexual Orientation Grid

I scored an average of 2.67

This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale:

0 = exclusively heterosexual
1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual
3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual
4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual
5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6 = exclusively homosexual

The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us. See also the page about
methods of measuring sexual identity.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

ALL ABOUT ME ~reprise~

hmmm... i just said on my previous entry na i've learned a lot na din from my previous experiences... at least i thought i have already learned my lessons. hehehe.. but just a very short while ago, what i realized was it's not that easy to do things such as those things that i've said. uhmmm.. like using your head a bit more... i thought i already did and that it would at laast save my ass from being hurt... pero bakit ganon... di na nga nag-expect, gumamit na ng utak.. masakit pa rin. does it mean that i'm just concealing my true feelings just like a defense mechanism? i think it's getting clearer na ganon nga.. kase i was still hurt although at least not that much but the point is, im still hurt which defeats the purpose of why im doing something like a "change of attack or tactics." Sabi ko nga im protecting myself from getting hurt pero first line of defende pa lang.. tinamaan kagad ako... hahaay.. ang gulo ng mundo.. lolz... sabi naman ng friend ko it takes time daw and at least this time, ginamit ko daw utak ko at least sa pag-aakala ko.. and i know what he implies... well.. sana nga... pero like i've said on the original version, i'm not chaing the way that i follow my emotions more but this time, un nga, i need to use a little bit more of my head. kumbaga, be rational pa rin kahit na intense ang feelings... tsk..

ang masasabi ko nalang.. tuloy ko lang muna ung bago kong tactics and i'll be a little bit more apprehensive and the most important of them all, BAHALA NA SI BATMAN.. lolz ..

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Going ga-ga over CHARMED

I know this entry is almost a decade late but what the heck, I still love it. Actually, a lot of my friends have been watching the series for quite a long time now. Im just not sure though if they've watched the series from its pilot episode. There were times in the past when I saw a couple of episodes but since I wasnt an avid follower, I didn't really know anything about the series except for t'was about three sisters being witches fighting evil using their powers. And when I got to watch an episode before, I always had a lotta questions to my friends on who's who... what's what.. etc.. The reason that I wasn't able to follow the series (even though I really like the plot and to think the setting is in San Fo) was that I havent watched the pilot season and for me, it really is hard to follow any series if you were'nt able to start it from the very beginning. The same reason I haven't followed FRIENDS. But just three weeks ago, my padmate bought CHARMED pilot season dvd's and i was able to watch some of the episodes and i'd say t'was really addicting. I even got late because of watching it. lolz.. I was able to understand who really they were and answered some my questions about the it. Last week, that same padmate of mine bought the second season dvd's and we already started watching it. Although I still miss some of the episodes, I still enjoyed those that I saw and I'd say I'm already loving the show. I love the concept, I love the sisters and I love Prue(Shannen Doherty). It's just so bad that the producers had to "kill" her character because according to my research(LOLZ).. Alyssa and Shannen just can't seem to work good together and one had to go. Alyssa tried to leave as well but since Shannen already told the producers she will leave the show, the producers asked Alyssa to stay. Anyways, it's just a frustration for me because Shannen's character is my favorite not to mention that she's also the sexiest and the prettiest for me among the sisters. Hmmm...

I think I'm going to watch the succeeding seasons even without Prue. **SOB** I'm not sure though if it's already on season 6 or 7 here in the Philippines; because in the US, Charmed is on its final season and is almost on their series finale.

Anyhow.... =)

a forwarded text and a spam e-mail

My "ex" once texted me this when we were in the verge of going on separate ways:

"it's best to w8 4 d 1 u want, dan 2 settle 4d1 available; best 2 w8 4 d 1 u luv, dan 2 settle 4 d1 around; best 2 w8 for d ryt 1 coz lyf is 2 short 2 waste on d wrong 1."

hmmm.. in contrast i received this spam e-mail from a friend. Here it goes:

"THE BUS ********

Love is like waiting for a bus.

When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself " full....cannot sit down, I'll wait for the next one."

So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it you said, "eeee...this bus is so shabby!"

So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while another bus came, it's not crowded, not old but you said, "eeee...not air conditioned ... better wait for the next one."

So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it was getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately inside the next bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus!

And you wasted your time and money just to get into the wrong one!

Even if an air conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that the air conditioned bus won't break down or whether or not the airconditioner will be too cold for you.

Wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance. If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you just press the red button and get off the bus! Hey, who said life is fair???

The best thing to do is be observant and open-minded. If it doesn't suit you, get off.

I'm sure you've had this experience before. You saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course).

You flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed pass you! It just wasn't meant for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on you. If you haven't made any choice, WALK!

Walking is like being single. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want...the rest who couldn't afford another ride would just have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly or not.

Also, sometimes it is better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than to gamble with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved.

But there is one bus that I failed to tell you about.- the Bus you do not have to wait for, the Bus that will stop on its own and ask you if you wish to come inside, then take you for a joy ride for the rest of your life.

Hope you get to ride on that bus! :)"

Life is but full of choices. Happiness is in your hands and not with others. If you want to be happy, you can make it happen. So it's up to you on what's better to believe from the two articles. ;-)

Friday, May 19, 2006


guys... im going to buy a new cell phone this june and im planning to buy a Motorola RAZR v3i unit. It's one of the two new razr units by motorola. Honestly, this fone got my attention because of its stylish and elegant look. Yoko kase ng sobrang classic kaya i eliminated Motorola SLVR sa possible list ko. Gusto ko kase sa v3i eh ung good looks and features nya na hinahanap ko. .. may removable/expandable memory, 1.23 megapixel digicam, mp3 player and others... eto lang kaseng tatlo ung first three important things to consider for me.. ok lang kahit hindi 3g phone like RAZR v3x... =) un nga lang... im hearing some bad things not only about v3i but also with Motorola's configuration in general.. nasanay kase tayong mga pinoy sa nokia kaya nasanay ang mga service provider sa configuration ng nokia... i heard that ung mp3 daw e di pede maisend even thru blue tooth... may compatibility problems daw..

anyways... kung may suggestion kayo for me... post naman kayo ng comments... ang kelangan ko eh ung phone/digicam/mp3 player in one classy at stylish at ung may removable/expandable mem... at higit sa lahat eh ranging from 12-14k... hehehe... =) Motorola RAZR v3i costs between the range i gave...

for now... un muna ang final pick ko... =)

Monday, May 15, 2006

Senti muna... guys comments naman please...

i've been thinking about this matter for a lifetime now... up to this point, di ko alam ang sagot... guys... i need your comments on this one...

there are times that we complain or feel sorry for ourselves when we fall in love at the wrong time, or with the wrong person... sometell us to fight for what we feel or for the person that we have a strong feelings for... but having experienced it before, i would say it's still easier said than done.. but it's an entirely different topic..

now.... what if you THINK that the right person is right there in front of you... a very ideal kind of person... goodlooking/attractive, understanding, kind and nice, sweet, intelligent, loyal and faihtful and most of all, that person admires/loves you so much... damn... would you let the person pass by just like that? or would you think hard or be wise enough to decide on what should be better for you at the present?

the catch: you do not have strong feelings for him/her despite the fact that the person is one in a million... or it could also be that you do not have any feelings for the person at all...

what would you do and how would you do it?

comments please... thanks po.. =)

Thursday, May 11, 2006


just yesterday, i had my first minor operation(except of course when i was circumsized which i don't like to think as an operation although technically it is.... hehe) at makati medical center scheduled at 4:00pm... i had to drop by my bestfriend's girlfriend working at Philam Life Tower. I was in Philam at around 3:30 and left there at 3:45. My plan was just to walk my way from Philam to Makati Med but unexpectedly, it suddenly rained so i just took a cab to Makati Med. I was in Makati Med by 4:05 and went straight to the Operating Room as pre-instructed to me 2 days ago when i had a checkup. I was accomodated by the OR desk at around 4:10 and had me fill out a form before the operation. After that, they had me change my clothes to a hospital gown and had me takeoff everything except for my undies of course.. after that, they brought me to the room where i'd be operated. The assisting doctor, Dr.Santos, accompanied me there, where she together with a lady nurse had me lie on the bed. Dr. Santos was a beautiful doctor and she was really so nice that she talked to me once in awhile maybe just to calm me or take my tension away. The truth is, i wasnt really that nervous or tensed. I just felt a bit since it was my first time. Next thing the lady doctor did was to clean the area that needs excision and they like tied me on the bed and covered my whole body except for my... **bleep** .. lolz.. anyways.. it was a small lump of mass slightly behind and below my left ear.. hehe.. so as i was saying, it was only that part that was left exposed. I think it was 4:40pm when i last glanced at the wall clock and a few seconds later, I already heard my doctor arrive and was talking about the procedure. Dr. Pat Guzman started talkng to me and said that he would inject the anaesthesia already and it would be a bit painful... but actually, it wasnt... hehe... the next thing i knew, they were suctioning "it" already and I was singing "mass songs" in my mind to relax myself.. hehehe.. it didnt really take that long but there was some part of the operation that was a bit painful and i think i felt they had to "anaesthesize" me again. And it was only through the end of the procedure, when i heard Dr. Santos asking the nurse to cut the thread that i learned that they had made a small cut in my skin before the suction and needed stitches. And i was like thinking, "di naman pala masakit kahit may stitches... hehe," and i was so proud of myself. hehehe... Then, everything was taken off of me and they had to make the bandage exaggeratedly big since the doctor said that i'm a bleeder(i already thought i was but only emotionally... haha.. cheesy...)... and they even had to prescribe me a medicine to slacken(tama ba ung word for the sentence.. lolz) the bleeding... I put my clothes back on again, got my prescriptions from Dr. Santos and then I walked out of the hospital with my chin up.. (kahit may malaking bandage from the lower part of my ear to my chin).. hehehe...

and this is the story on how i got devirginized.. lolz