Tuesday, December 06, 2005

the cool breeze is here again....

haaay... lumalamig na ang hangin... andami ng lanterns and lights sa streets... mga christmas shoppers... i cant' believe that the most favorite day of the year (aside of course from my birthday) is fast approaching again... pero bakit ganon? parang kulang.. parang im not that excited... not that intense... tsk... ewan ko ba... i always try my best to be happy kahit alam kong may hinihintay ako to make myself satisfied... basta... isang malaking ewan... im trying my damn best pero unconsciously kulang pa ren... i'm trying to go out on dates... actually, last week eh lumbas kame ng "ex" ko... and i can still feel na may special pa rin sa'min dalawa... yung hawak sa kamay nya... yung haplos ng kamay nya sa mukha ko... ganun pa ren.. di nagbabago... and just last night.. i was really not feeling well... actually, absent ako sa work ko... i texted my "ex" i was not feeling well... im ill... nagtext back sya... made sure if i was ok... i think it was really sweet since di na sya naka-sun ngayun... heheh... magdodoctor kase sya eh... he really made sure im ok... and suddenly when we hung up.. i felt bad... depressed... i felt alone... na parang kulang talga ang buhay ko ngayun... i can feel deep inside na kelangan ko sya... i cried so hard... di ko alam... but just hearing the voice on the other side was enuf to make me feel good... haaay... i hope maging ok kame... i think we're going back to dating again... wish me luck...

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